JUNE; Say Cheeeeeeeese!

I miss snuggling up with a book & hot chocolate, long walks in the rain, movie marathons, food escapades, running, social drinking sessions and I miss hanging out with everyone who matters & of course typing out my thoughts (blogging). It's funny how the simplest of things can make one happy and those are the things that certainly put a big smile on my face. I think I made a few re-connections with a couple of people who I MISS & havnt talked to in ages during the last couple of days and I am so glad I did. I look forward to all the hang out's planned for the month! :D

Every day for the past week, I dream of him. This guy with blue eyes, brown hair and the most charming smile; the kind that could sweep you of your feet. He reaches out to touch my face and as I reach out for his hand, he drifts further and further away until he literally disappears. It sounds as if it lasted for 10 minutes at the very most but it felt like hours. That look of anguish and sadness overwhelms him and I just stand there with tears in my eyes and wishing we had a goodbye. It's a tad weird that every guy who has loved me deep enough either comes to no good end or dies. It's tragic!

It's funny, I think I lack faith in myself. I give so much emphasis to letting go of someone, I feel as though it would kill me on the inside and shatter my heart into smithereens but perhaps that's just a fiction of my oh-so-charming imagination. Maybe it's because I tend to give every ounce of myself when I love someone. Without the testing, manipulating, without the playing hard-to-get and without the hurting; its something everyone does and it is something I can never grasp.

Being this way however, makes it so easy to let go. Especially knowing we've done our best, knowing we did all there is to do. Maybe that's enough.

The last face I want to see right before I close my eyes, is you smiling back at me. :)