Goodbye, Love.

Love is one of the only emotions that can truly make us feel vulnerable. So much so that we short change ourselves for someone who might not even deserve us in the first place. Never mind that, but they don't even work on deserving us! It's always rosy in the beginning because most of us put on a mask; an image of who we portray ourselves to be or perhaps an ideal self (who we'd like to be). Everyone falls for that. Honestly, how many of us would come clean and lay the cards on the table initially? close to none I suppose (I'm the only person I know, but we all know I'm crazy!) & How many of us would put on an image of who we are NOT to get someone attracted? Maybe it doesn't do as much harm as I make it out to be.

I mean, all of us would like to make some sort of impression to get something started. Here comes the challenging bit: The testing. We test the ones we love by showing our true selves wondering if they would stick around but one test leads to another and another and another and another. Reality check: Who are we to test another? Guys! News Flash! Testing someone will only lead to a sabotage on our part.

Personally, I always accepted the blame even when I knew I wasn't in the wrong. It wasn't the ego talking, it was that voice in my heart. I accepted it anyway because Psych has taught to me to be the bigger person. To apologize and set things right, To throw myself out into the world and lay all my cards on the table. Psych gave me courage to come out of my shell. Psych gave me the courage to take a chance on someone. The best part is, it isn't just Psychology (science), Daddy agrees as well.

Maybe everything I do for the people I love come from a combination and affirmation of science and that voice that echoes. He could throw me a 100 more relationships that may possibly fail, 100 more heart wreaks.. but I won't throw in the towel because I know, every guy I fall in love with, I make them better lovers and they make me more and more incredible. Maybe they aren't meant for me but they'd be a better lover to the next girl they fall in love with. I raise their standards to a certain extent and I like it!

FACTS: If he can't be a friend, he can't be anything else. You may be his best friend but its supposed to work both ways. Is he yours? The EGO destroys everything that could have been. That much I know.