It will be worth it

I cannot believe how things are working out for me; despite the usual up's and down's that take place. I've always been there for everyone in my life who matters. The world may call me naive or even stupid but nevertheless, I treat people the way I would like to be treated. It really doesn't matter if the favors are returned.

My spiritual daddy on the other hand; has always been there. He's been a guiding light in my life. He has been there for me, the way everyone else has failed to; when even the very people I've loved have failed to and I realize its enough. I get back everything I give to the world through him and that overwhelms me with comfort.

To think the one I've looked for all my life has been within me all this while.

After much contemplation with myself, I have pretty much decided to continue my further studies in New Zealand once I'm through with my Bachelor's. It'll take me till 2011 or 2012 with hons. I'm not sure if I can count on hons here at the moment. The competition at JCU is no joke but I'll still give this all I've got and I'll never give in or give up. It's nice to think of a place away from here, to start building my life and fulfilling my dreams. It's somewhat like a clean slate and even better when I know I have done all I can possibly do.

New Zealand is not my escape. I have never run away from my problems.. its a very immature thing to do. Hence I have always faced up to them; whether I like it or not.. suffered, dealt with them, sorted the huge mess out and looked ahead.

It's pretty exciting and its something I'm looking forward to. Working hard for my degree will bear fruit. Relationships on the other hand is something I leave to daddy. He knows I'm exhausted, worn out but yet I have complete faith in him.